Appreciated

...sigh...
Well this is one of the first weekends that I feel like my work has paid off. This new position that God has called me to has been a horrible blessing... My heart is all for the children, and I want each child to learn the lessons I prepare each week, but need to learn how to let go of the lesson once it has reached the hands of my wonderful volunteers. I CANNOT TEACH TO EACH CHILD!, I have to keep telling myself!

But each time I see a lesson coming back to me at the end of the weekend with the same amount of materials in them as when they went out, you can hear my heart break, like a frozen river getting ready for spring. What went on in these classrooms? Did the children learn anything? Was a life changed? What are these children telling their parents that they learned? Was it my fault? Were materials missing? But I move on and bring in a new week!

This week I felt appreciated! My lesson was finally executed! All my preschoolers walked out of their classrooms with smiles on their faces, artwork in their hands, and Gog in their hearts! This was a good weekend! God is all around! Can you feel Him?

I Don't Get It.....

So I have this question that has been irking me like a single grain of sand under your skin.... Why do people tell you not to take something personal after they have just delivered to you something really harsh.... I mean, The question should be, How can I not take that personally?....Apparently you are talking to my person...right?....So that is a little, personal, don't you think?
Do they tell you that so that you have a little cushion as they stomp you to the floor?....Or is it just that they lack communication skills and therefore now place the ball in your field for depicting exactly what point they are trying to get across?

tough times...

Have you ever had those weeks were nothing seems to go right and you are in a continuous state of fighting back tears but you have no reason why? Well that was my weekend. I walked around in some what of a daze with puffy red eyes and yet told everyone nothing was wrong. Why do we do that? Why don't we just say 'Yes, everything is wrong, but I just don't want to talk about it'? Is is beacause we are afraid to apper weak? Or maybe exposed? Why is it that we feel so 'naked'? So stripped? It's these times when you learn to appreciate and truly look at what you have for what it is! My husband... he is my WORLD! I always knew it, but put it into practice this week! He is my love, my confidant, my best friend, my shoulder to cry...make that bawl on! :) I don’t know what I would do without him, he always makes it batter. God sooo blessed me with this wonderful man.

So when you feel like your world is coming down all around you and you're just treading water, and feel like you can't breath.....I'm convinced that it is God stripping you down to your weakest, more vulnerable state so that you can truly appreciate those that love you!!!

GOD IS GREAT!

What A Weekend

This was the first of many amazing weekends to come. I am thoroughly exhausted, but am excited, 'on fire', and passionate! God has given my pastor and vision and I am going to run after it. If I could sit through this weekends' service time after time I would. It sent my heart racing and my tears flowing.

This weekend I was able to show some of the gifts that God has blessed me with, but am anxious to see what he has planned for me. I think... in the past two years alone God has already given me the man of my dreams, a special blessing (my son), a job filled with amazing people and great opportunity, and a new family at FRC that has sprouted so many awesome relationships. What else could he possibly have left for me? But then I remember He is GOD and I will never understand!

I keep praying and trusting in Him, leaving the rest to Him. He knows what he is doing, and I thank Him everyday for all he has blessed me with!